i'm radioactive, radioactive. ....

I'm waking up, I feel it in my bones

Enough to make my systems blow

Welcome to the new age, to the new age

Welcome to the new age, to the new age

Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive

Whoa, oh, oh, oh, oh, whoa, oh, oh, oh, I'm radioactive, radioactive

- Imagine Dragons

I had this song in my head this whole morning.  Well today came. Just like I knew it would.  Time passes and even if we are anticipatory for something good or something bad it will come and it will go.  

This morning I woke up, donned my supersuit,  prayed with my little family, kissed them goodbye and drove myself to the hospital.  

Is there another option of outfit when becoming radioactive?  I think not. Plus I wanted to make it fun that mom was going off to gain superpowers and fight the cancer for my kids.  It made it less scary for them and actually myself too! Plus it was way fun to have all the technicians laugh this morning while they were doing their regular job. 

It's so surreal going through this. Sometimes I feel like I'm on the outside watching it play out like a movie scene.   The radiation guy explained everything a few times, then said we're going to go onto the Hot Lab and then your pill is behind a lead case and you reach in and take it and then we'd rather you get going pretty quickly.   

Gotcha.

Game plan; get in, swallow the giant gray bomb, get out. 

And that's just what I did, and had him film it for posterity.

As I was walking out I set off every one of their nuclear alarms.  I felt like I should have a flashing light or someone with a megaphone following behind me, " stay back, she's about to blow".  But nope. I just walked out of the hospital straight to my car and got in and took a deep breath.  

I then began my drive down to Provo where my isolation begins. I am staying in my parent's basement away from the world. 

It was an interesting drive down as I began to feel the effects of my body starting to absorb things. I have a pretty vivid imagination so pictures of mini explosions going off in my stomach were flitting through my mind. Especially as I began to get warm, then warmer, then downright hot and turned the A.C. on!! (This coming from the girl that has been an icicle after going off my meds.  )

As I drove I began to feel my neck start hurting and aching, and I began to get nauseous.  It was oodles of fun. I snickered as I drove behind a biohazard truck for a good ways and thought I needed a sign on my car warning to stay away.   

I remember the day I realized as a child that there were other people on the road, filling those numerous cars, going a million different places and experiencing a multitude of joys and pains. It was a very "aha" moment for my 7 year old brain.   I actually thought about that moment today because I am pretty sure I will remember this particular car ride for the rest of my life, and I was just hoping and praying for all those around me that they might safely reach their destinations and that they might find joy on their journey. 

If anyone needs me I will be in my batcave unable to assist until Saturday.  After then, just send up the signal.   If unable to locate the batcave,  just look for the house that is glowing at night, and not from any Christmas lights..